Recover: Hurting into Healing

The last two and a half years have really brought highs and lows in my life. I will never forget the first of November, 2018, when I suffered a stroke. That moment began a brand new journey for me. The stress of certain situations of serving in a church finally took its toll. It seemed that satan had gained a victory. But... God had a plan!

God never allows you to go through something that He is not willing to grow you. While I don't believe God causes all things to happen, I know He allows things for His glory and our growth. The evil that men do is not orchestrated by God, but rather, the devil. However, God takes what people mean for bad and turns it around for good. While my struggle was very real and very deep, I do thank the Lord that He walked with me to the other side.

This last year I have been able to walk slowly with God and learn. Anyone who truly knows me knows of my deep passion for the church and leadership. They know that I desire God to move like never before among His Bride, called the church, to make a difference in this world. I'm praying that we as a church will do everything we can to fulfill the Great Commission in our generation. I'm praying that God will purify His church for His using. And you also know that I believe we should read the Bible slowly!

My journey has brought me to the realization of just how many ministers with a passion and vision for the church struggle. The struggle is real and very deep. But God has reminded us that a people without a vision will perish. We certainly don't need visionless leadership in any church! But is it worth the price? I believe it is with my whole heart. I have learned that most men who start in the ministry do not finish in the ministry. Over 1,500 ministers a month leave the ministry. The number one reason is because of abuse from church members. The politics and agendas just get too much and end up destroying them and their families. How tragic! BUT, they are in good company as the Bible reminds us that we will be persecuted as He was persecuted.

For these reasons, and several more, God has really opened my eyes to use my hurt and story to help heal others. I am a trained speaker, mentor, coach, and teacher not only through the John Maxwell Team, but also 41 years of ministry in the local church. Mostly from 50 years of walking with the Lord! AND I'M STILL LEARNING. I have so far to go and so much more to learn. God is growing my opportunity to provide leadership healing and encouragement to ministers and staff who have suffered in the ministry.

I am presently developing teaching materials, seminars, and a book that will culminate in helping walk the hurting into healing. My heart truly breaks for those who have faithfully served for so long, lead many to Jesus, counseled countless through deep waters, only to suffer at the hands of a few who seek to destroy.

So, I ask you to pray for me as I continue this journey.  Pray that the joy of serving and growing remains stronger than ever. Pray that God will guide my heart, thoughts, and words so that all will glorify HIM. Pray that I will be deaf to the defeaters and wise to the godly. Pray that God will provide the encouragers and mentors that I need. Most of all pray!

From the heart,
PastorBR